EMO:D

Luckily, I have time to blog again. Though I could not really sign in, I have asked for help from my friend. After a week of studying until midnight or sometimes later and banned myself from watching television for so many days, I managed to have a good sleep just for one day and watch television. Everyday when I go back home, I will start either doing homework or study. I was so tired but I know I cannot rest at all! For English, I managed to study for the whole day but you may ask:

“So how is your English, is it good?” I can tell you that for my English, I was very very disappointed when I get back the marks, I was the first on to be called but I know it will not be good. On that day, I did not know why I did not really have time to do strategic reading for comprehension not even following MC’s steps to answer questions. I was really very disappointed. Every time no matter how hard I work or I am very focus on the subject, my marks remain as low as ever. Why? I did not really know. My maximum marks for paper is just 60++ but I just cannot go higher than that or in other words I have not go over than that marks. I think it is because I am too poor in this language but it is so important in Singapore. If I would to compare my marks with other schools in Singapore. I may be at the back. How am I going to score well? I could say that I am really really sad with myself. At last, some people who did not really study benefits but for those who really wants to score higher just cannot. I think it is not about studyng but it is about your background. I can tell that this time, may be my total will not be like last term 70++ but 60++. I just cannot believe it!

Can anyone just give me some tips or comments for English? I really want to improve. My target is to get 80++ for total marks. I know it is easy for some of them but for me, I could say it is so difficult. I think the highest for this year for me is just 70++. I really want to go to Chung Cheng High but every time I calculate my marks, I only get 220++ or 230++. Actually the best is I wish to get more than 255. I know nothing is impossible. I will also try to think of other strategies.

I will put in all my heart and sole for this time as it is for my own good. I will want to go to my dream school. I will want to do my best for this PSLE without any regrets for working hard for six years. I really have no mood in playing or even going out. I did not know why. I will always play like nobody business but this time I plan to not be like last term but even on weekend I always stay in my room to study.

For Chinese, I improve but it is still not the marks I want. I want to get more than 86 to achieve my goal. I know that for this time my oral and compo have pull me down. Last term, I got highest for compo but this time I did so terribly. On the other hand, I did quite well for the paper as I did improve. I was quite satisfied but on a bigger theory, I have not achieve what I want. I will try my best to get the marks I will really want. Overall, I think I only get 81 or lower. I am not so sure.

For maths, I am equally sad as I have dropped from my last mock 3 paper but improve from my marks in SA1 by 10 marks but it is not what I want to get. For math, I have always target to get A* because first of all I made some careless mistake but I will try to be more meticulous just to get my goal too. After all math is not a subject I really concerned but t is English and Science that I have always concerned of. This two subject is like a yoyo. Sometimes, I improve a lot but there is still sometimes I have drastic decrease in both subject.
For Science, I could not believe it at all. I left the whole question for the last question blank and a question blank. For this subject, it apply to me again, I did not do TCK or even other methods. When I look at the time, I was very nervous so I rush through but I did not have enough time to finish it. When everything ends, I was disappointed with myself again. For everything, not even one I am satisfied with and not even one meet my goal. I know for science I will do very badly for it. Like last term, I really got a heart attack as it was my first time “meeting” that kind of marks. I was really disappointed with myself. This time I am going to have that kind of feeling again. I am very sad with myself this weekend.

I know it is not the end yet. I have still time to work even harderer so that I will achieve my own goals. This will not make me have any regrets at all. I have start revising my Science again and English too. This are what I am weak in. I am really in that maybe serious mood to study to work hard for PSLE.

EMO
6:41 AM